I've moved....

Still knitting but not near as much since life seems to have taken over.

I've moved to a new blog that I'll hopefully keep up with a little better.  Plus I wanted to make a clean break from other things posted in here & have a little more freedom to post with a feeling of being anonymous.

Here goes.... Find me here if you'd like to follow along.

1/2/11 - A good piece of advise. Plus you've gotta love a heavy, metal, street sign quality sign that says "no pissy attitudes"! : P

Here's to you & to me

1/1/11 - A good wish for the new year!

1/1/11 - don't see that every day!

Based on Mia's post from the other day on numerology - I thought I'd check it out. Some fit very well, others not so much. I don't think I have an excess of 7 in my makeup. While some of those traits are there from time to time, they aren't present very much.

There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 79
There are 6 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3

A Soul Urge number of 3 means:
With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.

You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4

An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

Goodbye 2010

Kind of glad to see the year go. Hasn't been an easy year: PB going on 2 years without a job, me without a job, Shorty dying, going to college after 15 years, etc.... Here's hoping that 2011 brings a greater sense of inner peace, happiness, closeness to those who have grown distant, rocking the college thing & mega prayers that I get into the nursing program.

* * Taken at noon in Michigan. 50 degrees!! Not on December 31st!!

Happy Turkey Day!

First Thanksgiving without Shorty at the table across from me. Here's hoping it goes alright. Miss you Shorty! (funny Thanksgiving story to follow later).

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Enjoy the friends, family, food, naps, football & searching through the black Friday ads!

so much for catching up

School is going pretty well. I wish I was doing better in Anatomy (one of the 5 classes they base your GPA on in order to get into the nursing program).

Thinking about school and all that it entails is really overwhelming at the moment and it's left me feeling very alone.

1 house, 2 people, 0 jobs, 2 people trying to go to school, 1 person's unemployment about to run out - does not make for a very settled & calm Chicky.

Thinking about what to say to catch up just makes me want to cry. I feel like there's 10 gallons of shit stuffed into a 5 gallon bucket and it just wants to overflow. I want to lose it, cry, scream, yell, and talk it out. But I feel like I can't. I feel like I would be judged or viewed as "weak" or "just being emotional" or "wanting to pick a fight" by the people who are closest to me, those who already seem to have a lower opinion of me. I can't always be strong, and I know this, I can't always try to be good, or whoever everyone wants me to be. I just wish I felt comfortable and safe enough to let go.

I'm ok or happy for a while but there's always this underlying current that never quite leaves me.

And I need it to leave me.

As it should be I suppose

I got side tracked with school & CNA training. Truthfully, I should be typing up my paper for my Psych class today @ 12:15..... Guess I should get another cup of coffee & start typing.

I'll catch up tonight or over the weekend!